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Post by Alisha on Jun 20, 2011 8:35:13 GMT -5
Molly felt tears welling in her eres at his words, she couldn't help it. It was the absolute sweetest thing she had ever been told, and for once she believed it. She thought about how lucky she had been to have a shitty car that decided to overheat that day. That thought only made her think about how quick their relationship had become physical, she almost felt like a whore. She may have felt that way under any other circumstance, but with the things he was telling her she only felt special, wanted. She pulled his mouth to hers and kissed him slowly. "You don't need to feel obligated to fix me." She said, propping herself up on one arm and watching him. "I'm can be pretty damaged at times." She smiled sadly at him, wanting to give him a last out, becuase she didn't think she would be able to let him walk away if he stayed any longer.
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Post by Kelli-wa on Jun 20, 2011 13:32:55 GMT -5
Tad shook his head lightly, looking up at her. "I don't feel obligated. I want to. I wasn't lying when I said I like you. I want to help you." He leaned up on his elbows and kissed her gently on the lips before he pulled away and just looked at her, "You said Julian's dad was moving here, didn't you? Let me help you with that." He kissed her again. "You don't need to bear that by yourself. Let me help you figure out what to do and we'll do that together." He laid back down and looked up at the ceiling, "I just don't get how anyone could not care about that little guy. He's so cute, and he's just excited about everything. Is he always like that?" he asked, looking back to Molly.
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Post by Alisha on Jun 20, 2011 16:37:40 GMT -5
Molly rolled onto her stomach, crossing her arms and laying her head on them. She just watched him, listening as he spoke. He just kept getting better and better, it was almost unreal. She forwned at the mention of David, remebering why she had wanted to get drunk in the first place. She was worried than he moved closer becuase he wanted something from her. From the things he was saying on the phone with her earlier that day, it seemed that was exactly what he wanted. That was how he worked, constantly showing up until she caved. "I'm afraid that he is going to try to force his way back into my life." She said, closing her eyes. "He told me as much." Her frown turned into a smile at the thought of her son. Molly opened her eyes. "Yeah. He's just so happy and full of life. Sometimes it's the only thing that keeps me going. He's the center of my world, really." She said, "Every time I think about David, I just think about how I wouldn't have my son if I had listened to him. I never would have aborted him, I don't believe in that. But as soon as I found out I was pregnant, I loved him already." Julian had become the most important thing in her life in an instant, and it seemed Tad was making his way up there already. "Julian is so trusting, and David doesn't derserve that. He doesn't need someone like him in his life."
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Post by Kelli-wa on Jun 20, 2011 23:16:26 GMT -5
Tad looked back at her and nodded, he wasn’t sure what that meant, but he was pretty sure that if it upset her, he was going to have a problem with it. He’d not seen a sad Molly yet, frustrated, maybe, but she wasn’t sad. He didn’t know if he could stand it. He hoped she didn’t mean into her heart or into her mind, he wanted to be there and fill those places, behind Julian, of course. “Well, if you don’t want that, that’s what I’m here for. I can help you say no to him, alright?” he said, more of a question, making sure that she was okay with that. He smiled again, as she started talking about Julian. Her eyes seemed to sparkle, you could tell how much she loved her son, just by the way she talked about him. Then the subject went back to David. He frowned lightly, but he understood what she meant. He was smiling gently again by the end of her statement, though. It was true, that cute little guy wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for David. He nodded again, “Well then don’t let him be a part of his life. If his name isn’t on the birth certificate he can’t do anything until he gets a paternity test. And if he doesn’t know that he can get a paternity test, then you won’t have to worry about it.”
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Post by Alisha on Jun 21, 2011 16:30:28 GMT -5
Molly nodded at his question, she knew that she would have little to no problem turning David down if Tad were to stick around. She wasn't worried about David wanting to be in Julian's life for reasons one might think, she was worried because she knew how David worked. He would try to act like the doting father, just to get to into her pants, she was positive. He wouldn't give a shit about the boy he fathered, he never wanted children, it wasn't part of his precious plan. "It bothered me that I didn't see it then," She said, looking down at her folded arms, "Then, I thought I would have been happy to spend the rest of my life with him, just because he wasn't abusive." Molly let out a small gasp, realizing what she had mentioned. Her past wasn't something she told most people. Especially not someone that she wanted a future with. She was always terrified of telling the one she was with, for fear of them seeing how damaged she was inside and throwing her away.
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Post by Kelli-wa on Jun 21, 2011 17:51:22 GMT -5
Tad listened to her talk and nodded, but as she finished her thought, he licked his lips and gave her an odd look. “Wait, what do you mean?” he asked. He hoped he had just heard her incorrectly, but he wanted to know for sure. He put his hand on her cheek, forcing her to look at him, “Do you trust me?” he asked her lightly, hoping that the answer was yes. “I want to know everything, Molly,” he said before he kissed her lightly. “I don’t mean to seem cheesy, but you can tell me…”
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Post by Alisha on Jun 21, 2011 18:56:34 GMT -5
Molly grimaced, she really wished she hadn't said anything. It was hard enough telling someone who she didn't have feelings for, and she hated the pitying looks she recieved when she told others about her past. It had been a rough time for her, for her whole family. She did trust him, of course she trusted him. He wouldn't be in her bed right now if she didn't. But, the fear was an overwhelming suffocating emotion that couldn't be qualmed. Molly shook her head, as if to force the thoughts from her head. She sat up quickly, she needed out. She could feel the panic building within her, escalading. She got up, chanting 'no' under her breath. She couldn't stop it, she hadn't had an anxiety attack in years. She walked to her dresser and quickly pulled out a t-shirt, slipping it over her head. She walked briskly onto the balcony attatched to her room, plopping down on the ground, and pulling her knees to her chest. Molly wrapped her arms around them and squeezed her eyes shut tightly, willing the shaking to go away. She couldn't do this right now.
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Post by Kelli-wa on Jun 21, 2011 19:44:45 GMT -5
Tad didn’t mean to freak her out, and was actually quite confused as she panicked and ran to the dresser and then out the door. He licked his lips, sitting up in bed and ran a hand through his hair. Not sure what he should do. He glanced around, found his boxers and pulled them on, then walked slowly to the door of the balcony. He let out a sigh and looked at her, “You don’t have to tell me right now. If you need to take some time to figure this out first, you can. I just want you to know, I’m not going away, alright?” he asked. He stepped out onto the balcony in the dark and sat down beside her. He slipped his hand into hers and watched her, letting her calm down at her own pace. “I don’t think any less of you, if it counts for anything.”
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Post by Alisha on Jun 21, 2011 20:14:05 GMT -5
Molly flinched when he sat next to her, cursing her body and mind for betraying her. She hadn't meant to freak out the way she had, but she new that sometimes it was unavoidable. Her condition had drastically improved from where it had been when she was a teen, but it snuck up on her sometimes. She opened her teary eyes and turned her head to look at him. He had been so sweet tonight and she went completely awol on him. "I'm sorry," She whispered. He didn't deserve for her to fall off her rocker. Molly moved so she was facing him, sitting on her knees. She wrapped her arms around his neck, pulling herslef close to him. "I'm sorry," She repeated, the tears spilling onto her cheeks. "I wasn't expecting that. It hasn't happened in a while." She sniffled, willing her emotions to get in check. "It's just hard for me to talk about. It's a pretty fucked up story. I'm pretty fucked up."
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Post by Kelli-wa on Jun 22, 2011 5:26:26 GMT -5
Tad smiled lightly as she apologized, he shook his head, "No, don't be sorry," he said softly. He let his arms hold her close as she hugged him around the neck. He let his left hand run up and down her back, trying to comfort her so she'd stop feeling bad. He didn't mean to do this to her and he hated that she was feeling this way now. He turned his head and kissed her gently on the temple, trying to decipher what she was saying through the tears. He nodded, understanding her dilemma. "You know what, though? That's just the thing. Everyone's fucked up. Some maybe more than others, but everyone has some sort of weird story in their past. Some people might try to hide it, maybe their weird story is about their Old Uncle Simon who was banned from any family gatherings for whipping his nads out in front of the children, but everyone has a fuck up somewhere." He kissed her forehead. "And believe me, you aren't going to scare me away with any story about something that wasn't your fault. I won't think any less of you for what happened then, I just want to know how I can fix it now. You can take your time if you want and just wait until you're more comfortable with me, but whenever you're ready, I want to know what he did. I want to understand, alright?"
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Post by Alisha on Jun 24, 2011 13:22:24 GMT -5
Molly let out a watery chuckle at his comment about Uncle Simon, shaking with laughter. She loosened her grip around his neck and wiped her eyes. She couldn't believe she had broken down in front of him. She worked so hard to keep things inside, and the one person she wanted to be normal for the most had seen her at her worst. She sighed, he was being so sweet to her, wanting to help. She pulled away from him, letting her hands drop into her lap, watching them as if they were the most interesting thing in the world. "It's kind of a long story..." She said quietly. Molly wanted to tell him, but she was terrified what resurfacing old memories would bring.
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Post by Kelli-wa on Jun 24, 2011 13:47:10 GMT -5
Tad watched her after she pulled away from him. She was straddling his legs, so they weren't too far away, but still far enough away that he could see her face without difficulty. He licked his lips and put his hands on her thighs, trying to find a way to comfort her, "Well, we've got plenty of time, I'm not working until Monday, and I'm in for the long haul," he said lightly. He kissed her lips gently, though, still wanting her to realize that he wouldn't judge her based on her past. "Don't feel pressured to tell me right now, but I would like to know."
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Post by Alisha on Jul 16, 2011 5:01:27 GMT -5
Molly nodded, she knew he wouldn't judge her. If he did, she would have been angry, livid even. The things that had happened to her were out of her control. Sure, she could jar walked away, but that isn't always easy when a person manipulates you to the point where you fear for your life just at the thought of taking a stand. A very bad person had done things to her that could be considered brutal and sadistic. Molly kissed Tad's cheek, and stood, reaching for his hand. She led him back into her room, shutting the balcony door behind them. She dropped his hand at the bed, and gave him a small smile. "You should probably sit down." She suggested as she turned away. Molly walked Into her closet, pulling a string that turned on a bulb mounted to the ceiling. She stood on her tiptoes to reach for a small box, smirking as she did so. She was positive with that action, he could see just how naked she still was. Molly pulled the string once again, and walked back over to the bed.
She sat Indian style, I the middle of the bed. The leather black box had been placed in front of her on the mattress. It had been years since she had opened it, but she knew the contents very well. Molly slowly lifted the lid, and set it aside. She swallowed thickly and reached in, looking back up at Tad. It was now or never, she needed to get past this now, or it might always remain a secret. Molly had pulled out a stack of pictures, she held them out for him to take. She didn't even have to look to know what they were. Those pictures were a cataloged of every time she had been beaten to a bloody pulp, by a person she was supposed to trust. It was always hard for her to look at these, to see herself covered in purples, blues, and reds. She cleared her throat. "His name was Andy." She started out, "We met the summer after my freshman year of high school. He was three years older than me." She looked down at her lap, where she had placed her hands. "I had always seen him around, growing up. But we never ran in the same circles. He had a way of altering the way I thought, the way I did things. It was a breath of fresh air compared to the stale life of being a politicians daughter." She paused, gathering her thoughts. "When he met me, I was considered the golden girl." Molly let out a dark laugh. "I should have walked away the first time it happened."
"We were at a party, and his friends were being pricks, as usual. It wasn't anything new, they just couldn't understand why a guy like him would ever want to bother with an inexperienced little girl like me." She looked back up at Tad for a moment. "That was the first night he hit me, and you know why? I asked him why he let his friends speak the way they did to me. He slapped me so hard I bruised, they didn't go away for a week. I had to hide at a friends house so my parents wouldn't find out." She looked away, at nothing in particular. "And because I didn't do anything about it, he only got worse." Tears sprung into her eyes at her next admission. "After a particularly bad night, he had been accusing me of cheating on him. He tied me to his bed ad raped me. I was a virgin." The waterworks were on full blast by now, but she didn't stop. She just let the tears flow, not bothering to wipe her cheeks or eyes. "
That's when my parents put a stop to it. I didn't want to press charges, so they sent him on his way. That didn't stop the calls though, he would call me every day, tell me what a worthless both I was. He said every possible thing he could to hurt me. Eventually I stopped eating, and what I did get down I would puke out in the bathroom later. I almost died." It was getting harder for her to speak at this point. "My brother convinced me to get help, which I did, and that is where I met David. I missed my whole junior year because I was in a hospital. David and I were in for the same thing. Eventually we both got out and began to rebuild our lives." She forced herself to look back at Tad, she didn't think she could say any more, but she would answer any questions he had. "That's the shortened version." She whispered. Reliving her broken past had been exhausting.
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Post by Kelli-wa on Jul 16, 2011 5:21:40 GMT -5
Tad followed her back inside, doing as he was told, he sat down on the bed, one leg hooked under the other that was hanging off the side of the bed. He watched her as she walked to the closet and as she stood on her toes, which made him crack a slow smile, very certain that she had done that on purpose. She walked back over and he looked at her as she sat. He had no idea what to expect or why she had this box right now. She handed him the stack of photos and he glanced down before looking back up at her and furrowing his brow. He looked back down as she started to speak of the horrible person who had done these things to her. He shook his head and flipped through a few of the pictures before he couldn't stand it anymore. He shook his head and looked back up at her, the tears flowing freely from her eyes. He was in shock. How this girl who was strong, outspoken and sexy could ever let herself get that bad was beyond him, but he planned to be the one to make sure it never happened again. She finished her story and he reached up, wiping tears away with his thumb as he looked at her, "Thank you," he said. "I don't need the long version." He leaned forward a bit and kissed her cheek. "You're so beautiful." He didn't know what else to say, but he couldn't stand the thought of her hurting anymore and he thought that might be the best way to do it. Every girl likes compliments, right? He kissed her lips lightly, "You're not worthless." He moved the black box from in front of her and crawled forward on his hands and knees, kissing her a little harder, "You deserve so much better than what you've had to deal with."
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Post by Alisha on Jul 17, 2011 4:10:36 GMT -5
Molly sniffled when he kissed her cheek, trying to control the flood of emotions that were coursing through her. She was glad she had gotten it out, but hadn't prepared to be a sobbing mess. She accepted his kisses and leaned into him, threading her fingers loosely into his hair. She just wanted to forget about her broken past and focus on her future. Molly hoped that Tad would be part of her future, possibly even a permanent fixture. She pulled away and rested her forehead against his, opening her eyes to look at him. "Thank you," She said, "You make me think happy thoughts."
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