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Post by Kelli-wa on Jan 15, 2012 1:40:10 GMT -5
Tad blinked a few times at her question. He wasn't expecting it. He thought maybe he asked her about his dad or where babies come from, but what was this question? He couldn't figure it out. "What do you mean?" he asked lightly. It was an honest question. He wasn't sure what she wanted to know. The night? The relationship? He bit his lip and took her by the hand. He led her back into her room so that they could talk without fear of waking Julian. Once they were inside he closed the door. "Here, sit down for a minute and we'll talk about this."
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Post by Alisha on Jan 16, 2012 1:04:07 GMT -5
Molly nodded her head slightly, following him into her room and sitting on the edge of her bed. She felt restless, like she needed to get up and do something. Something to distract her... something to take away the dread she couldn't help but feeling. Molly bit her lip and looked down and her hands, which were placed on her knees. "This." She said, gesturing in between them. She looked up at him for a moment before looking away once again. To her this already felt like so much more to her, but she didn't even know if she had the right to feel that way.
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Post by Kelli-wa on Jan 16, 2012 1:45:39 GMT -5
Tad sighed lightly and got on his knees in front of where she sat on the bed. "Oh, Molly..." He licked his lips. "Baby. I--I love you. So much. You understand that, right? I love you and I love that little boy sleeping in his bed right now. I will do everything in my power to protect the both of you from anything." He shook his head gently. He didn't know that she didn't see these things. He wanted to tell her that he could make everything perfect, or that he knew where this was headed but he had absolutely no idea. Letting out a huge sigh he took her hand. He tried to think of the right thing to say. He licked his lips. "You know I need you, right?"
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Post by Alisha on Jan 17, 2012 18:42:53 GMT -5
Molly focused her eyes on him when he knelt in front of her. She didn't know why, but she was terrified to hear the things he was going to say. She almost wanted to close her eyes and plug her ears like a child, because ever since they started whatever the hell it was they had going here, she had been afraid that this conversation would ruin it all. She feared that he would just tell her that they were just having fun, consequently making what she felt for him void and useless. Molly's eyes widened with his admission and her mouth dropped open slightly. He had rendered her speechless. Her mouth opened and closed a few times before she could finally get any words to come out of her mouth. Shaking her head, Molly leaned back slightly. "But," She forced out, "Why?" She but her lip, not really expecting him to answer that stupid question. She was just so confused, and couldn't help the tears that she finally allowed to spring into her eyes, not that she'd had a choice in the matter. "You don't need me, I've got baggage and a kid and a bitter ex who could show up at any moment. I'm trouble." She follow with, a few seconds later. "I'm pretty much the definition of crazy situations." She was so busy trying to ind some way to discredit his words, that she didn't even stop to think that she should just shut up and return the sentiment.
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Post by Kelli-wa on Jan 17, 2012 20:59:52 GMT -5
Tad watched her, panicking a little thinking that maybe he'd said the wrong thing. He didn't want that to be the case, he wanted her to say she loved him too. This question didn't make sense to him. He smirked at her eventual reply, "What do you mean why, Molly? Why wouldn't I? You're gorgeous, smart, funny and to top it all off you're a wonderful mother. I adore Julian, you know that. In all honesty, I would die for him. I would die for you. Forget the baggage and who cares about David? I promise I would never let him do anything to hurt you or Julian." He looked at her so seriously that it almost hurt. "I'm not just blowing smoke here, baby. I love you. That's not going to change. You've tried to scare me away so many times and it hasn't worked, it isn't going to. Ever."
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Post by Alisha on Jan 24, 2012 2:30:17 GMT -5
His words made the tears fall from her eyes. She hated that she was crying, she was sick of the tears. She was sick of feeling so vulnerable all of the time, sick of being afraid. She was sick of being so broken at a moment's notice despite this incredibly sweet guy that had stuck by her after all of this time. But, most of all, she was tired of pushing him away. He didn't deserve it. Molly wanted so much to just let all of the walls tumble down, but her stubborn mind wouldn't let that happen. She stood, dropping his hands. "God!" She let out a frustrated breath. "I don't deserve you." She shook her head, taking a few steps away from him and wiping her eyes. "You know, Julian scares the crap out of me sometimes. He depends on me completely and sometimes I don't even have the answers myself. You know what he asked me tonight?" She turned slightly to look at him. "He asked me if you were going to be his dad. And I had to tell him no. Why? Because I don't expect that from you. I cant expect that from you." Molly crossed her arms, shaking her head. "I just, I don't know anymore. You're so amazingly sweet and understanding, why cant I just accept that?" Her last words came out as a whisper, and Molly lowered her gaze.
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Post by Kelli-wa on Jan 24, 2012 2:44:59 GMT -5
It hurt him a little that she thought she didn't deserve him, because in all honesty, he thought she deserved better. He was just a mechanic, a son of wealthy parents who dropped out of school because it bored him. She was brilliant and gorgeous and it was him that wasn't good enough. Not her. He watched her as she spoke and was shocked at the words she was saying. "He--he really asked you that?" he asked lightly. A little bit of him was overjoyed for some reason, but the other half was troubled. Why had it bothered her so much. He knew that she wasn't trying to reject him, but a little part of him couldn't help but feel that way. He stood from his spot on the floor and sighed. He wrapped his arms around her waist from behind, hugging her body close to his own. "Hey. I know that you're worried. About Julian. You realize that I'm not going anywhere right?" He kissed her cheek. "If you'll let me in, I'll show you how much I want to be with you." He let out a shaky sigh, he was holding back tears. "I want you to understand how much I love you, Molly. I love you."
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Post by Alisha on Jan 24, 2012 3:14:13 GMT -5
Molly turned in his arms, resting her head on his shoulder. "Yes, he did." Molly replied, licking her lips. "That doesn't freak you out, does it?" She had been afraid to tell him before, but she was glad she got it out. It wasn't something that she should have kept from him anyway. "I don't think you know how much he adores you. You're so good with him, and it scares me to think about how much it would hurt him if you weren't around anymore." She didn't like to think about what it would be like if things between them ended, it hurt too much. "I know, baby. You show me every day." She lifted her arms to wrap around his neck, letting out a sigh. "I'm just too stupid to let it happen." His words warmed her heart and she grinned, even though he couldn't see it. "How do you do that? Make everything feel so right."
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Post by Kelli-wa on Jan 24, 2012 3:25:47 GMT -5
Tad let a huge grin appear on his face, "Are you kidding? I would claim him as my own in a heartbeat," he said gently with a soft chuckle. He listened as she spoke and he nodded. He could understand that she was freaked, but she didn't need to be. He sighed lightly. "Baby, I know that it's scary. Listen to me, though. I'm not going anywhere. I'm staying right here, with you and Julian for as long as you'll let me be here, whether that be two more days or for the rest of my life." He smiled at her as she started to come out of the little funk she was in. It made him feel better, that she got how much he cared. He still hadnt heard it back, but he wasn't complaining. He wanted to be there for her, and he would be. At her question he shrugged, "Honestly? I just tell you the truth."
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Post by Alisha on Feb 5, 2012 23:59:25 GMT -5
She smiled against his chest. It made her happy that he cared so much for her son. She didn't think she'd ever find someone that would be so good with Julian, and to Julian. There weren't many guys out there that would even spend time with someone else's kid, let alone genuinely care about them like she knew Tad cared for Julian. Molly felt like the happy little bubble they had managed to stay in had been popped, and now she was left trying to feel safe again. She pulled away slightly to look up at him, that uncertainty creeping into her thoughts again. "What am I doing?" She said, shaking her head with a sigh. She was allowed to be worried about how it would effect Julian if something were to happen between them, but she wasn't allowed to let that worry sabotage what they already had going. After a moment, she smiled. "I'm happy. You make me happy." She stood on her toes and placed a kiss on his lips. "And if you want to continue to deal with me and my crazy antics, then I'm going to let you. Even if I think you're completely insane for not running off a long time ago."
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Post by Kelli-wa on Feb 6, 2012 0:09:59 GMT -5
Tad licked his lips lightly and smiled at the girl who was resting against his chest. When she asked what she was doing, he got a worried look on his face again. He didn't feel secure anymore and that was starting to freak him out. He bit his lip and swallowed lightly. He smiled when she continued to speak, though. He nodded at her. "You have no idea how not insane I feel that I am. You're beautiful, Molly. Quit selling yourself short." He smiled down at her and kissed her on the forehead. "I just want you to understand that there's no way I'm leaving you. I love you. I love you and I love Julian."
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Post by Alisha on Feb 20, 2012 3:34:48 GMT -5
She was stupid to even think that letting him go might be for the best. He loves us. She willed the happy tears to go away. She was done crying. His kind words caused a happy smile to form on her face. Tad was always there to reassure her, to put that smile back on her face, to make her happy, and she wouldn't have it any other way. "It means so much to me, to hear you say that." She told him. Molly took a step back so she could kick off her shoes. A sudden wave of dizziness passed over her and she grabbed onto his arm to steady herself. She hadn't been sleeping much lately, she had midterms coming up, and with Julian crawling into her bad with bad dreams almost every night, she hadn't gotten a good nights sleep in a while.
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Post by Kelli-wa on Feb 20, 2012 3:42:55 GMT -5
Tad gave her an odd look as she latched onto him, trying to keep her balance. He put his hands on her shoulders to steady her. "You alright, sweetheart? You seem pretty tired..." He smiled gently and led her to the bed. "Here, I'll fix the movie to play and you can get comfortable. We'll forget the wine tonight." He moved to put the movie in and then shut the light out before returning to the bed with her. He laid down and motioned for her to cane here. "You feeling alright, Molly?"
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Post by Alisha on Mar 1, 2012 0:30:30 GMT -5
Molly shrugged in response to his question. "I haven't been sleeping much lately." She explained. Molly sat down on the bed, and looked up at him. A yawn escaped her lips and she covered her mouth. "Julian's been having nightmares, which means I've been pretty much running on fumes these past few days." When he went to put the movie on, Molly slowly got up and put on something more comfortable than her button down and jeans. When Julian woke up in the middle of the night, it was rare for Molly to be able to fall asleep again. She knew she worried too much, but her son was the most important thing in the world to her. Molly climbed into the bed, stifling another yawn, and curled up next to him. She really hoped the dizzy spells were only a result of her lack of sleep, and would go away once she was on a steady sleep schedule again. "I'll be fine." She said, focusing her eyes on the tv. "What're we watching this time?"
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Post by Kelli-wa on Mar 1, 2012 0:51:01 GMT -5
Tad watched her carefully, hoping that she would let herself sleep tonight. She got into bed with him and he hugged her close, looking down at her as she spoke. He nodded, "Well, why don't I get up with Julian tonight. If he has a nightmare I'll try to take care of it. I don't know if I'll be as good as you, but I'll try. I want you to be able to sleep." He kissed her forehead and looked back up at the screen. He shook his head gently, having forgotten what movie he'd put into the dvd player. "I think it's 27 Dresses. I figured you'd appreciate it. I've never seen it before."
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