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Post by Tori on Jan 11, 2012 23:02:32 GMT -5
Shawn continued his movements, but as soon as she slowed him down, and lifted herself off of him, thats when he was confused. He thought she was getting into it, really. She seemed so relaxed too. He looked at her with his head tilted slightly to the side, but his hands still caressing her bottom softly. "But...what?" he asked almost flatly, wondering what her answer was going to be.
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Post by Lezzi on Jan 22, 2012 17:36:33 GMT -5
Polaris blushed, her head screaming at her for her stupidity. She wanted to disappear, to rewind, or to even pull away but she couldn't do anything she was so embarrassed. she felt like a complete idiot for wanting to stop and talk. Did she always do this? She took a deep breath and finally just covered her face with her hands, tears welling up in her eyes. "I don't want to be just physical with you Shawn. I don't know what I'm doing. I jsut don't want to screw up and have this be like the last few times we've tried." If you could even call them tries, she thought. Ever since she met Shawn that's all it seemed to be. Hello, yell, goodbye, comeback, kiss, yell, goodbye, comeback, repeat, repeat, repeat. she didn't want to get stuck in that circle again.
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Post by Tori on Jan 23, 2012 19:24:27 GMT -5
While Shawn waited for Polaris to speak, he gave her a few more tender kisses over her collarbone to her neck, giving little nips at it again. He managed to pull himself upright then, when she explained how she was feeling. He would of been fine too, and replied back simply, but then he noticed the tears welling up in her eyes. "Ris," he sighed, letting his grip on her ass slide off slowly. "I know you don't. And, sometimes...I don't always want us to be physical either. It's just that...." he rolled his tongue over his lip rings, biting his lip after. "Sometimes...I don't, really know how to...." he let out another sigh, this one sounding more frustrated than the first. He shook his head. He wasn't sure of how to tell Polaris the truth; that he really did have feelings for her. That he didn't just want her for the sex. He wasn't used to this. This feeling he felt inside for Polaris. It was like it was the first time Shawn has ever loved.
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Post by Lezzi on Jan 23, 2012 20:46:35 GMT -5
Polaris sniffed, feeling nothing but pathetic as she tried to clear herself up. She waited for his responsible, flinching at his frustrated sigh. She hated doing this to him. She knew he didn't like talking about his feelings and he felt awkward about it, but she couldn't seem to hold her self back from it. "I-I know. i'm sorry." She leaned forward, curled up in his lap and rested her head on his shoulder, kissing his neck softly. "Let's just say I'm an emotional bitch and forget about it.' she meant it as a joke even though she didn't smile or laugh. Playing with the hair on his neck, she closed her eyes and sighed, calming herself down.
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Post by Tori on Jan 24, 2012 18:08:45 GMT -5
Shawn shrugged at her response. He wasn't sure whether to agree or disagree with her comment on herself, so he just gave a light chuckle, rubbing her back softly with his fingertips, soothingly. "Well, it is my fault for acting up this way. I just..." he shook his head lightly, biting his lip. Was now a good time to tell her? It would come out being awkward anyway, so he figured he might as well just tell her now. "Can I tell you something?" before waiting for her reply, he continued anyway. "I kind of...um, I've sort of been taking a liking to you a lot more lately. Not just sexually, either." he muttered out the last bit more under his breath, though still audible for her to hear. "But..." he bit his lip again, "Relationship wise...I don't know, I just...." he let out another sigh, shaking his head frustratedly. "I don't know..."
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Post by Lezzi on Jan 26, 2012 20:47:16 GMT -5
Polaris sighed when he rubbed her back, thankful that he wasn't just freezing up and ignoring or, or worse, getting up and leaving. She waited for him to finish his sentence until he asked a question. She picked her head u and looked at him as a response. She blushed as she listened, surprised a bit at what he was saying. It just wasn't..well, Shawn-like. She could probably grow attached to anyone she wanted if they pretended to like her back. But he seemed to actually be trying. She caught his head in her hands as he shook it in frustration, forcing him to look at her. she sort of smiled, then kissed him as if saying she understood. She didn't really but she didn't think he understood her either so she didn't care. they'd just role with the punches and deal with whatever came at them, she guessed.
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Post by Tori on Jan 29, 2012 22:28:42 GMT -5
He stared right back in her eyes again, as her hands were keeping him very still at the moment. When she kissed him then, that's when he sort of figured that she understood what he was saying. At least that's what he thought anyway. He managed to return half a smile back to her. Even if she didn't understand what he had just said though, she was still putting up with him and the way he was being now...especially when how he was acting now wasn't, well, wasn't him. He returned the kiss back to her, pressing their lips back together passionately. Then a thought came to his mind. He did want to change. No matter how hard it seemed to have been to him, and through all those obstacles he's come by in the past, he still wants to change. He lifted his head back up to look at Polaris again, and said with the most serious voice he had, "I want to have dinner with you." Which seemed to have come out faster than he had planned. So he tried again and hoped he didn't sound just as stupid. He cleared his throat before speaking again. "I want to, um...take you out to dinner, sometime. I-if that's alright with you, I mean." He kissed Polaris on the lips again, adding in, "I wanna change, Ris. I really do this time."
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Post by Lezzi on Feb 10, 2012 15:41:36 GMT -5
Polaris was enjoying the kiss, trying to just forget everything and tell herself this wasn't a big deal and she was just overreacting. When he pulled away, she froze, puzzled by his request. It was more like a demand until he restated it and kissed her again. She wanted to laugh but could tell he was trying to be serious. "That's fine with me. And right now I don't care, I just don't want to keep running from you." She kissed him back, pushing him onto his back so they could relax.
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Post by Tori on Feb 19, 2012 18:04:40 GMT -5
Shawn nodded, returning the kiss given to him as he was pushed on his back again. "I know..I'm sick of all this running too." he admitted, linking his fingers together around her waist, holding her close to him.
((blah, sorry its so short..))
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Post by Lezzi on Mar 4, 2012 16:37:46 GMT -5
Polaris sighed and rest her head on his chest, careful of her wound. She pulled a blanket over them and closer her eyes, smiling slightly. "Well right now you've tired me out. So I'm taking a short nap." She kissed his chin, looking at him for a moment.
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Post by Tori on Mar 7, 2012 20:24:42 GMT -5
Shawn chuckled lightly, letting her lean her head back on his chest to rest again. If anyone could use the rest, she could. "You do that then. I'll be sure to be here when you wake up." he told her, keeping his arms wrapped around her warmly.
(can't think of much else to put....does this mean this thread is coming to an end finally? lol)
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