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Post by Kelli-wa on Jun 21, 2011 16:45:52 GMT -5
Mason stopped her and she looked at him again, her lip quivering, she was about ready to cry, she was scared, terrified that he was telling the truth. She licked her lips. She didn’t know how to do the girl thing and be anything other than physical. Anything with actual feelings didn’t compute from her and in her mind, all guys wanted from any girl was sex and lots of it. She didn’t understand how anyone could feel that way about her, with how much she’d been used. She furrowed her brow and shook her head, “No, no you’re lying. People don’t look at me as any more than something to shove their dick in.” She shook her head, “I’m a slut, I don’t think you understand that.” She shook her head again, still unable to understand. She looked up, “But then you—I just can’t figure you out. You were in my pants, literally, I was not wearing pants, you got in my shower and you just got out.” She shook her head, “I just don’t know what to do. I don’t understand how to act now.”
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Post by Alisha on Jun 21, 2011 17:07:49 GMT -5
Mason could feel he was loosing this battle, but he wouldn't give up without a fight. He would make her see, he would try anything at this point. He hoped that she would believe him and let him show her how great she was, even if he had to remind her ever day. He would do it, do anything to make her happy. His heart nearly broke with the way she was speaking about herself, she wasn't a slut. He didn't care about how many guys she may have been with, he just hated them for using her and making her feel this way about herself. "That isn't true," He said, the pain he was feeling flitering out into his words. "Don't ever say that. It doesn't matter to me what you've done, I only care how you feel about yourself." He stepped slowly closer to her, he didn't want to overwelm her. "That's not all I care about, I don't want meaningless sex. I've been there, done that, and it's not satisfying." Mason wanted to make her see, that not all guys wanted a peice of meat to fuck. "I don't care what I have to do, but I will make you see, Cybill. Let me in." He pleaded with her, pulling her close, drpping her wrist. He brought and hand up to cup her cheek. He kissed her hair, and put on arm around her. "Let me in, I want to be a part of your life."
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Post by Kelli-wa on Jun 21, 2011 18:15:56 GMT -5
Cybill could feel her eyes filling with tears, she didn’t get it, she didn’t get why he liked her so much and why it had taken him that short amount of time. She nodded at him as he disagreed with her, “It is true. Five. You’re number five. Or you would be if we had done anything. And I can’t tell you how many people I’ve kissed, honestly I’ve lost count.” She shook her head lightly again, “You don’t want me, I’m worthless, I’m not good enough for someone like you.” She didn’t want to hurt him, and with everything that she’d ever done. She didn’t want that, she didn’t want him to know what she’d done. She didn’t want anyone to know. He pulled her close and kissed her hair softly, “But you care. Deep down you care, everyone does. No one wants to be with someone who’s had four other people before him.” She looked up into his eyes, really wanting to let him in, but she wanted to protect him from her overuse. She wanted to save him from the heartbreak that came from knowing her secrets.
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Post by Alisha on Jun 21, 2011 19:27:29 GMT -5
Mason gave her a pained expression and frowned. He didn't care that she had been with other people, the past was the past. Though the thought of her being with someone else bothered him, just because he liked her and wanted to be the one doing those things to her. He wrapped his arms around her, hugging her to his chest tightly. He was afraid that she would run away from him and he never wanted her to leave. "I don't care, though. Sure, It's bothers me that they've been where I haven't but your past is your past. I am not going to give up easily, Cybill. I don't care how many times I have to say it until you get it into your head." He said, determined. "I'm not going to give up on you unless you look me in the eye and tell me you don't want me around."
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Post by Kelli-wa on Jun 21, 2011 20:26:01 GMT -5
Cybill looked away from him, she didn't think she deserved him being so nice to her. He was being so sweet and he acted as if nothing mattered but her which just wasn't true. She shook her head as he was pressed to his chest, she let her hands rest on his stomach as she buried her face in his chest, wishing she could understand what he saw in her and why he wanted her so bad. "But it would just be easier if you didn't care. You shouldn't put yourself in my mess..." She lifted her eyes to look into his. "I can't say that. Not if I'm looking you in the eye at the same time..."
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Post by Alisha on Jun 24, 2011 12:58:15 GMT -5
Mason sighed softly, wishing she would just open her eyes. He hoped she would believe him, and soon. He would wait and continue to show her how he felt until she believed him. He just wanted her to stop being so hard on herself, sure he didn't know what her past entailed, but he wanted to learn. "What if I wan't to to be in your mess?" He asked, resting his head on her shoulder, "All tangled with no way out." His words were whispered by the end of his statement. "Will you let me be part of your life, Cybill?" He asked softly, pleading with her just to let it go. He righted himself, watching her and pushing a lock of her hair behind her ear.
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Post by Kelli-wa on Jun 24, 2011 13:14:57 GMT -5
Cybill looked up at him, still unbelieving, but something she saw in his face told her that he wasn't lying. She couldn't tell what it was, maybe the look in his eyes, or maybe the way he was holding her, or just the words themselves, but she knew that she didn't want him to let go. That thought terrified her. As much as she wanted to say no, throw a fit about the things that were happening, make him leave her alone, she couldn't. In actuality, she didn't want any of that, she just wanted him. She nodded at his last question. She wasn't sure how else to answer. "Will you help me?" she asked. She knew she couldn't let him in on her own, he'd have to pick her apart, peel back layers, because she wasn't going to give in. As much as she wanted to, her mind wouldn't let her.
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Post by Alisha on Jul 16, 2011 3:56:25 GMT -5
Mason fought the urge to do a victory dance, although he knew the battle was far from over. He would try to push all of her insecurities and hurt away, and fill those spaces with positive thoughts. Mason smiled, glad she was giving him a chance to show her how great she was, and learn more about her at the same time time. "I'll do anything," He said, his voice quiet. He meant what he said, he would do all he could to make her happy. "You'll see one day, someday it'll just click." He pressed a soft kiss to her lips. Mason was full of hope now, now that he had been given this chance, he would do everything in his power not to blow it. "Now, are you still hungry?"
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Post by Kelli-wa on Jul 16, 2011 4:12:17 GMT -5
Cybill shook her head lightly, she still didn't believe him. She couldn't explain it, he just seemed a little too good to be true. Actually, he was way too good to be true. Licking her lips she looked up again before he kissed her. When he did and pulled away she smiled at him. Her answer to his question was a nod. "Yeah, uhm, I think I'm going to go to the bathroom, though. That's alright, right?" she asked lightly, biting her lip. She wanted to fix herself a little, and after all of this she really had to go.
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Post by Alisha on Jul 17, 2011 1:35:41 GMT -5
Mason nodded, of course he didn't mind. As long as she didn't run off on him, he had no way of contacting her other than hanging around the skate park and waiting for her to show up. Using the time she was in the bathroom, he placed the grilled shreds into the microwave for a few seconds to warm it up. He sat at the table, with his head placed on his folded arms. He was left worrying about how things would turn out. There was a chance that he wouldn't be enough for her and she would just revert back to her lifestyle before she met him. Sure, Mason didn't expect her to change for him, but he hoped he could at least use the time they would spend together to make her happy. Not just happy with him, with herself as well.
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Post by Kelli-wa on Jul 17, 2011 2:47:39 GMT -5
As she reached the bathroom she shut the door and looked into the mirror with a huge breath in, letting it out slowly. She fixed her hair, which consisted of shaking her head and then making it messy with her hands. She licked her lips and looked in the mirror, wiping her eyes and cheeks. She then pinched her cheeks, bringing a rosy tint to them before she brushed her bangs over to one side. She took another breath before she exited the bathroom and saw him at the table. Her stomach fluttered happily. What the hell is that? she wondered. That was quite new to her, kind of scary, really. She walked up behind him and let her hands rub up and down his back. She placed a light kiss on the back of his neck. "Thank you."
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Post by Alisha on Jul 17, 2011 4:21:02 GMT -5
Mason smiled involuntarily when he heard Cybill enter the room. Even though she didn't understand it now, he hoped someday she would. He made him happy already, and they hadn't known each other very long at all. Her hands and lips on him sent delicious shivers down his spine, which prompted him to lift his head. Mason's eyes sought out her face, and when they found it he smiled again. "For what?" He asked. A lot of the things he had been saying and doing were already becoming second nature to him, so he didn't see anything out of the ordinary. "You know you don't have to thank me for caring for you, right? You're entitled to it."
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Post by Kelli-wa on Jul 17, 2011 9:51:12 GMT -5
As he turned to look at her she blushed lightly. What the fuck? I don't do this shit! She smiled at him as he spoke and shrugged at his question. He was the only person who ever made herSmile this much or even think about what she looked like. She bit her lip and let out a sigh. He started to speak again and she looked at him. Why was he so sweet? He didn't have to be. She just didn't get it, why did he think she deserved all this chivalry and understanding? She didn't think she did and usually she was the only one who thought she deserved anything. If she didn't think she deserved it, she obviously didn't. "You're just being really nice to me. I'm saying thank you for that..."
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Post by Alisha on Jul 30, 2011 5:35:09 GMT -5
Mason gave her an easy smile, it seemed that if he wanted to lighten the mood and cure his dampened spirits he would have to be cheery enough for the both of them. He knew things with Cybill probably wouldn't be too easy, he just hoped she wouldn't put on a happy face just to please him. "Well, youre welcome." He said, "You'll just have to get used to it, though. You can't just go around thanking me for all of the nice things I do, you might never be able to stop." He picked up one of the sandwiches and pulled the piece off, the gooey cheese running along his thumb. "Now, let's eat, shall we?" He hadn't rated since before he had left for the skate park, several hours earlier.
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Post by Kelli-wa on Aug 4, 2011 18:09:56 GMT -5
Cybill nodded lightly at his statement, "Alright, I'll work on it," she said. "I'm just not used to people being so nice to me." She picked up a sandwich for herself and took a bite. "God, I love grilled cheese," she said, shaking her head. "I don't know how something so simple can taste so amazingly fantastic." She smiled, obviously way to easily impressed.
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